The Winter Sun

Winter sun
The winter sun
Struggles to rise,
As lazy dawn still
Wrapt in slumber
Turns over to lie in
A few moments longer.
The sugar dusted
Scene emerges,
As blush-pink sky gives way
To sharp blue.
Indoor warmth deceives
The harsh outdoors,
As defiantly cold as
An Eskimo’s stare.
Air so cold it burns
The cheeks and
Unfeelingly removes
All feeling from ears
And toes.
Yet this freeze frame
Still of suspended animation,
Brittle white,
Allows perceiving of
Colour and form
Which summer’s
Bright flourish hides,
But which presents
For a moment, still,
Under the winter sun.

Winter sun

Silent

Today I have nothing to say.
So I will hold my tongue
And remain silent.
I will not be tempted to
Offer a platitude as empty
As a rattling tin, rusted
From years of neglect.
What can be said that is
Worthy of this moment?
Some moments are simply
Too deep to contain words;
Too heavy for feather-words
That float away on the wind.
Sometimes the obscurity of
Darkness is just the shield we need,
Where definitions diffuse
And answers hide away.
To hang our heads low and weep is
Better bread than much of
What is offered on the table
To feed our hungry souls.
We know we cannot pretend
To really understand, but all
Too often we pretend that we do.
Let there be silence today.
And tomorrow, and tomorrow’s tomorrow.
And if in time we find a word, or words
With Enough gravity to hold them down
Then, maybe then, I will break my silence.

(In response to the Sandy Hook massacre on 14 December 2012)

In Deeper Love

Looking and seeing
What is, and has been,
Of our unbreakable
Oneness;
In deeper love
Made true by
Light’s soft unveiling,
And harsh exposure.
These ten turns of
Life’s changing scene
Have revealed much for
Beholding, and more
To be beheld, as
This shared life grows
Ever upwards, outwards,
From roots in rich soil
Evergrowing the reaches
In deeper love.

(For my beloved wife, on the Xth anniversary of our promise to love each other forever)

Autumn

Autumn’s show of strength,
Turning once great oaks
In prime of presence
And greenest splendour,
Into frail and wizened
Silhouettes on broken furrows.
Barren fields of harvest
Spent, light waning,
Dropping, pulling down
The leaves to earth, and
Drawing cold down like a
Blanket over scented soil.
Crisp auburn turn,
Spreads a coloured carpet
Of beautiful decay,
And earth’s warm womb
Opens up to incubate
And store, before winter
Steals the day in night.
Warmth, held back, will wait
Until the turn again comes;
When the seed yields its shoot,
And the slumber its sleeper,
When life erupts in softness
With the turn of the weathered
Wheel of time and season.
How the turn of autumn
Comes so beautifully fast,
Relentlessly deconstructing
Nature’s flourish until
Only echo and memory of it
Remain in the remains.

Hard

My God specialises in ‘hard’.
When He sweated blood knowing
The cup He must drink from;
When He died there in the
Darkness of the 9th hour,
Abandoned and alone;
When He didn’t stay dead
But broke death’s power, forever;
He showed us what ‘hard’ looks like.
He chose ‘hard’ for us
So that when we face our
Own hard times; when we
Feel we can’t carry the load,
Or manage on our own,
We can look to Him who
Specialises in ‘hard’, and know
That nothing is impossible, and
In Him all things are possible,
If we but dare to believe.
So ‘hard’ for us becomes not
That which we cannot change,
Nor carry, nor manage on our own,
But having faith in the One
Who can change anything,
Who can carry our load,
And who will, in the hardest
Moments of your life,
Carry you through it
With arms that cannot fail.

(On the day of Jack’s stroke)

 

Sorrowful, yet always rejoicing

It’s not that I’m not sorrowful,
Or not feeling the loss
Of things, and time; I am.
It’s not that being laid low
And being held back
Have not pricked the bubble
Of my dreams; they have.
It’s not that the price I paid
To come was not high, and
For my family too; it was.
It’s not that the expectations
And hopes of others on me
Here do not weigh heavily
On my soul; they do.
And yet as I reflect and
Consider my feelings,
And look at what has been,
How my Father has held
Me close and met with me;
I see that yes, I am sorrowful,
Yet always rejoicing.

2 Cor 6:10

Written in Uganda

Hope for tomorrow

Hope for tomorrow
And faith for today.
Will I see beyond that
Which is before me today?
In the blur, the defocussed
View of what will be, then,
The sharpness of now,
And it’s glaring ungloss,
Claims to be the future now,
But shows only a frame of
The longer story of my life,
Which tomorrow will tell
A better ending than today.
Hope for tomorrow
And faith for today.
The last word is yet unwritten,
But hope will be its theme
And faith will be its muse.

Pentecost

Sound,
Then wind,
Then heat, light, fire.
How the power moves
Transcendentally
From heaven thru Earth,
From God to man.
Spirit, like energy;
Energy, like Spirit,
Never created,
Nor ever destroyed,
But transferred and transformed,
Given and returned.
Spirit of energy,
Dynamic Life,
Move to us and through us,
In power today.
Bring to us,
And in us,
Your Divine person
Into our quickened souls.

Written for Pentecost Sunday, 27th May 2012

Work

You work
Full of splendour and majesty.
You work
In faithfulness and love.
You work
To show even greater works.
You work
All things for the good of those who love you.
You work
Righteousness and justice for all the oppressed.
You work
Salvation for your people in the midst of the earth.
You work
And have been working since the beginning.
You work
All things to perfect completion.
You work
Until it is finished, and then you rest.
On the sabbath,
May we rest in your work.
May we rest in your rest.

Overwhelming waves

The Storm on the Sea of Galilee, by Rembrandt

The Storm on the Sea of Galilee, by Rembrandt

Rolled and rocked
With pitiless persistence,
The waves swell and roll,
A serpent’s back speeding
The crest to its rocky collision
At the border of land’s edge.
The wind effortlessly moving
From wherever it comes from
To wherever it goes (mystery),
Tearing the air with pitched howl
And rearranging things from
Quiet order to violent disorder.
The little boat offers the pretence
Of safety as it floats atop the
Moving everything, the restless flows.
“Head for shore”, comes the cry,
Barely heard as the wind steals sound,
But shore is far off,
And sharp rocks the harbour,
Foamed up and shaved by
The water’s razor’s edge.
Instinct is to turn askew
To face away from the looming
Waves, piled up to heaven,
Spreading their mantle
To hide horizon’s anchor
And narrow the perspective
Into an impending doom.
Seasoned mariners know
That the sea is queen and only
The brave and humble can
Harvest her bounty, or
Traverse her routes and courses,
But in our little boat we are
Baptised into the seafarer’s life
With no induction, no shallow entry.
We know not which way
To pitch or turn, no sail
Or mast but the taut whine
Of an outboard motor –
That has more than met its match –
Is our only hope of steering
To safety… or who knows where?
But turning aside, not facing
The waves brings a crash course
In how to handle choppy seas;
Crashing waves roll us to the limits
Of buoyancy and balance,
Pushing us way off course into
The open sea and away from
Land’s reach and firmer ground.
With naught to lose and
Challenged by fear, we turn
Our little boat face on into the
Mountainous waves.
Each wave blocks out the sky
Yet draws the bow heavenward
Until its almost standing upright,
Before the wave peak passes
And we nosedive down into
The valley beyond.
But as much as the waves
Threaten to overwhelm,
It’s only as we face them head on
That we can safely ride them,
Seeing them through,
Allowing the full wave to pass by
And under – going with the flow
And not fighting the force and power,
But trusting ourselves to the storm,
And the One who makes the wind,
And the waves and the rain.
Now set, facing forward,
A hymn rises up, and the
Voice to sing it out loud rises too,
The water’s surface amplifying
And accelerating the sound
So that even the crashing cymbals
And timpanic booms of the
Sea’s orchestra cannot drown
Out the rising chorus of
Joy unbounding, and peace
Instilling as the crescendo
Hits the climactic moment of
Rhyme and verse and then,
As suddenly as it all started,
The squall subsides and the wind rests,
And what was mayhem is now placidity
And perfect calm; the waves
Faced up to and faced down as
Our fears were too, and our little boat –
So helpless – now finds strength,
And carries us to harbour’s home.